至另一个世界的公公婆婆

不久前，我刚失去了一个很疼我的祖父。我是家里的第一个孙子虽然说是外孙，但大家都很疼爱我。我得到特别特别多的关爱。我的祖父祖母都很疼我，带我到处去。他们去哪里玩就带着我。在我一年级的时候，我最爱的祖母离开了我们到了另一个世界。所有人都很痛心，因为她是一位很好的祖母和妈妈也是一位受人尊敬的老奶奶。还记得有一次我必须去补习，妈妈他们都要去祭拜她，可是我不能跟。我哭着说想去，因为我想念她。当时还小，也不是很会想，总是闹便扭。自从祖母过世后，我和祖父的感情也疏远了。再加上他有了女朋友，我更是连称呼都不称呼了，不叫他公公。几个月前，我的阿姨对我说如果你不叫他，就只会让他离你更远，离他的女朋友更近。所以我终于又开口叫他公公了。没想到才几个月他竟然里我们而去。很突然地离开，让我措手不及。非常非常后悔之前对他的不孝。我希望他原谅我，希望他和祖母能好好的在另一个世界开开心心。

大扫除的失望

今天我牺牲了和人见面的时间，因为我需要大扫除。我最近都很累，回到家头痛，很累很累。昨天约了和人见面，但是因为大扫除到太迟，塞车时间就没办法和人见面了。我突然觉得好像是一种报应。今天让老师失望了，现在自己也尝到那种失望的感觉。牺牲换来了失望。。。但是老师的失望，我知道真的很重。。以后以后我需要牺牲的时间更多，是不是现在放弃了那种会换来失望的梦想会好过一点。以后就不需要失望。不知道，很累。。。请给我一些喘气的时间。我真的很累，很烦。搬家要烦，一切的一切都要去想。一切停止好吗？

Bore

Afternoon i went to watch Cloudy with a chance of meat balls. It's nice... Better than the G-force~ Abit bore day~ Keep playing facebook game the whole day~ Feel like very useless~ Juz now went out to ate steamboat as my dinner~ Wed is my 1st day to duty in fayette house hope everythings fine~ Gambateh new commitee~

Extra concern...

Yesterday, when i woke up after a few hour, i got a call from my secondary tuition teacher. I have abit miss her so i did sms her few days ago... but no one reply, i tot she din use the phone num ady. But thn when i pick up the phone n feel weird, who is this person? thn she told me, i m ur tuition teacher, i shock coz the phone din show her num. N she told me she is in Hong Kong, will be back after 2 years. I feel very happy, n chat awhile wif her. After that, i will very unconfortable becoz i feel sick. cough, sore throat, flu... Flu is the most serius one. I feel very unhappy coz i dun get extra concern from that person. Nitez, my condition more serius, sore throat until i cant speak at all~ I feel sad. My roomate n housemate very concern me. Tq u all~ My roomate noe me unhappy becoz of tat person so she sms tat person, thn tat person come my house n take away porridge for me. I cant stablize my emotion. I still very unhappy. When i sick, i nid ur extra concern, but whr is it ?

UPDATE!

long time din update my blog ady... Actually many things happen~ i juz celebrate my 1 year anniversary with raymond~ The jojo aning birthday~ Go to orchid park shooting and melaka! Wah, the melaka trip is ntg to shoot oso = = i tot got bring us to nice place n shoot some historical place... mana tahu... OMG... spent rm20 to melaka eat lunch thn bring the whole sweat n tired body back subang... anyways after the melaka trip me, jojoan, kahyan, lett n cally go to USJ9 eat banana leaf... Its no bad... I hope tat My COLLEGE can organise some more meaningful trip for student... haiz... mid term is coming.... Whr is my mood for STUDY ? Come back... My mood n spirit of Study.... 招魂hahha~
Gambateh for cognition quiz....
Study hard....study hard...study hard....

everyone hav a sweet dream... i want oso

it is 6.45am, i m not feeling well after ate a lot of foods. My stomach pain - - wind~~ help~ i juz slpt for 2 hour. start from 2.30am until 4.30am thn i cant fall aslp again. it is very tough tat can slp well after ate a lot of foods. i got cls in the morning, photography cls. My roomate is slping and me typing in the dark. abit challenging for me coz couldnt see the keyboard. Haha~

想

关心我的人很多，一直要我怎么做的人也很多~ 我和你怎么做别人都看着。。。我和你不容易啊~我承受的我想你知道，我知道自己对你很霸道，我知道我很任性。有些事，我真的累。好多人说不要放弃，谢谢你们，谢谢你们的鼓励。我很希望很希望能顺利地解决这件事。希望你会从这件事里懂得什么是承担责任。有些东西我不敢也不想说太多。每个人的生活背景不一样，在这些过程中学习面对某些事的方式也不同。一直被掐着脖子的感受很辛苦，我不想让人看到。一直努力的坚强下去，但会累，会想哭。“担当”这个字真沉重。
听着the climb这首歌不知道是如何去形容我心里的感觉。我很想去做一些事，但我必须想想我会得到什么样的结果。我需要承担结果。我不是不想，我很想，你以为我不想吗？我不能。也许有时人家都觉得我想很多，但是承担结果的那个人是我！所以我必须去想那么多。站在我这里看看想想。