the free world

What's the point?

2011-11-28T00:09:00.002+08:00

I miss those day... The piggyback... The atmosphere... The mood... It's hard to find back... Everything is difference nowadays compare with last time. Maybe worried is much more than happy... Happy have to worry about that, Sad also have to worry about that, even having fun still have to worry about that. What is the point? Doing all the things with worry ?

what is strong?

2011-11-27T01:52:00.005+08:00

Dunno wat to write.. But juz suddenly want to come here~ Do u noe how tired to be strong. It's not that u believe or not, it's juz i'm tired.

What is this? One day it will be fine~ Juz like last time, i've overcome it once. When times come, i think i can overcome it again~
p/s: you know nothing, you only know what you thought it was.

Cry and then Smile

2011-11-24T23:47:00.002+08:00

What a mess! I've been really very forgetful, it make me screw up in somethings... When the time i screw up, i know u are trying to say something to encourage me. However, those things tat you said really make me feel worse! If i know something will happen like this, i wont do that oso... I forget something, it's not wat i want also. It happened already. I juz nid some encouragement that can make me calm but not worse. When i m not happy, i nid u to make me happy, give me some strength to overcome some unhappy things. Lean on u, rest for awhile.....
Anyway, thank you so much for what you had done, although ur encouragement is not good.

blood pressure

2011-11-23T02:17:00.002+08:00

I feel put the picture is really suitable for these few weeks. I really hate group assignment. I hate those who doesn't care about it. If u all don't care, please dun group with me. My blood pressure went high because of u all. I m not ur servant, please do watever u all r suppose to do. This semester is the hard core semester. Next semester I hope there will be no more group assignment. My photo is pointing to u all. I have suffer enough ady. Please faster finish this semester. Please.... If u are useless, go die atdun be a rubbish in this whole.

NAH~

2011-11-16T22:43:00.001+08:00

This is my mood~
干！

1+1 = ?

2011-10-31T01:39:00.002+08:00

Today, i just watch again some old drama. I choose to watch a old drama that is something similar in my reality life. However, the drama has a happy ending, i m not sure what kind of result will happen in my reality life. Sometimes, some incident happen will change the result; but sometimes, not matter how hard i try, i just cant see what kind result will happen. Just let it be is the only way i could think about, i dunno what way i can do to change the result. If there is a miracle, maybe the result will change.

In some of the situation, 1+1=2 cannot be applied. It might be 1+1=>2

A random day~

2011-10-29T21:05:00.002+08:00

Today i just finish the vampire diaries until the latest episode~ Next month going to be a busy week for assignment due date and presentation, final also coming~ After graduation, what i want to do? This is the question after people asked u when you are going to graduate? I think i will miss the studying time, because i can have fun with friends, enjoy the life. However, when i m working, i think it's not gonna be so enjoyable. Although study need to face exam and assignment, i m very stress. The time of fun is much more than the time of stress.

* For those who are hurt by relationship: Friends, i hope u will be fine.

Drop By~

2011-07-17T14:09:00.004+08:00

Long time i din come here and write something... Friday nite, I suddenly thought of here... This semester is very stress, is a short semester and a lot of things have to be done in a short period. Seeing people very free and I very busy, I feel a bit unbalance. This semester make my friendship become not so well, because i seldom same class with them. I feel like harder and harder when come to the end of the studies... This is the 4th year and the 1st semester. Gonna graduate soon, but i feel very stress.....A lot of things popping up and I loss control to my temper...

Suffer Nite

2010-12-02T18:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday not feeling well, make me suffer! I cant slp... The whole nite i keep lay on the bed turn here and there... Wake up at around 3am to study since i cant slp, then 5am go back to room to prepare to slp. I still cant slp until 7am! Then i woke up at 7.45am to prepare for morning class. I seriously very tired! After came back from college, i slp for around 5 hour... Today gonna study hard - - Monday is the HRM final, abit worry. Anyways i still have to face it and solve it. Gambateh to everyone who is having finals next week.

Family gathering

2010-11-21T15:33:00.004+08:00

Last week i just recover from sick... Keep vomit and diarrhea, its so tough...I have family gathering in Port Dickson.. quite fun.. But abit disappointed because is not the hotel tat have private swimming pool one... The initial plan is to go to the International Water House which have the private swimming pool... But we have alot of children so change plan to the hotel which have lagoon for children to play...Anyway i still have a happy family gathering.. My mum birthday on the day that we want to leave.. Cant really celebrate wif her.. So i called father to buy her a cake give her a surprise.. When my mum got home and ask my father to buy bread as breakfast for the next day, my dad said is in the fridge.. But in the fridge is the cake for my mum... hehe~ My mum said its a big cake.. Hehe, so happy to heard tat...

韩版恶作剧之吻

2010-10-23T23:44:00.002+08:00

Long time didn't write something at here ady.. Juz finish 韩版恶作剧之吻. It's really nice. I like it... Kim Hyun Joong is really handsome.. OMG.. hehe~
Haiz.. alot of assignment, quiz and presentation - - gonna crazy soon~

I shall feel Lucky~

2010-09-29T21:44:00.002+08:00

Somehow.. i feel admire when i saw her picture... She is quite pretty and born from a rich family... No need to worry so much.. Even faild for some subject for a few time ady.. She can still continue and continue study.. But i see back my own picture, i oso felt that i m quite lucky.. I got freedom.. I got something tat she might not really have it even she is 20++ ady.. is no longer a small girl, but she is still be take care by her parents is like she is just 15 years old... I feel lucky~ and should feel satisfy...

难受

2010-09-02T00:21:00.002+08:00

很难受~我不知道怎么形容。我不会说，怎么说？怎么开口？怎样打发时间？好烦，好多东西要忙！但是呢？为什么做不完？我不要做，不想做！让我陷入这些状况，我真的很恨！如果没有那一天，会是怎样的呢？

特别的日子~

2010-08-23T04:06:00.002+08:00

16-22/8/2010 我收到假花，有一个新电话 21/8/2010 到lookout point人家所谓的小云顶，吃了一顿很贵又不是没美味的西餐。很多人在那里庆生，还有一个人在那里求婚。全场好暗，全场的人都祝福他们。我也在这里祝他们幸福。收到一个新的耳机。我也很幸福。22/8/2010 我终于吃到haagen dazz的雪糕，收到一罐糖子开心。在这段日子，我也看到了很珍贵的眼泪。我从来都没看过那人珍贵的眼泪。很多心里话，不知道从何说起，只希望大家都好。有些事，不是因为普通原因而发生，有些事就是那么的戏剧化。爱你~

蝴蝶-陶喆
当这世界已经准备将我遗弃
像一个伤兵被留在孤独荒野里
开始怀疑我存在有没有意义
在别人眼里我似乎变成了隐形
难道失败就永远翻不了身
谁来挽救堕落的灵魂
每次一见到你心理好平静
就像一只蝴蝶飞过废墟
我又能活下去我又找回勇气
你的爱像氧气帮忙我呼吸
我又能呼吸我又能呼吸
你就是不愿意放弃
生命充满乱七八糟的问题
像走在没有出口的那个迷宫里
oh no 一次又一次只会用借口逃避
怎么你从来没对我彻底的死心
我有何德何能值得你珍惜
为何你对我有求必应
每次一想到你像雨过天晴
看见一只蝴蝶飞过废墟
是那么的美丽就像一个奇迹
让我从倒下的地方站起
woo....只要一靠近你
就觉得安心
你看着我的眼没有怀疑
你对我的相信
让我又能重生
不管世界多冷我还有你
我有你
爱我这样的人对你来说不容易
我的痛苦你也经历
你是唯一陪我到天堂与地狱
每次一想到你
像雨过天晴看见一只蝴蝶飞过了废墟
我能撑得下去我会忘了过去
是你让我找回新的生命
yeah..每次一见到你就心存感激
现在我能坦然面对自己
我会永远珍惜我会永远爱你
在我心底的你的位置没有人能代替
yeah 你就是那唯一

时间与幸福

2010-08-19T11:39:00.002+08:00

世上最遥远的距离
不是我站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道相爱
却不能在一起.

这一段话是我在朋友的status看到的，很有意思的一段话，和我面临的情况一样。我真的希望有奇迹发生。很多的东西我都不能改变，只希望奇迹会发生在这件事。虽然他不是一个完美的人，不是很厉害读书的人，但是他真的很照顾我，很疼我。只要我们努力，都有做工，就不会饿死。昨天幻想起未来。。。老天爷，你总是在我幸福的时候，夺走我的幸福。我希望你能看看我，这段幸福我还不想被夺走。我真的好希望时间能够停留，我不想那么快到那一天。可是时间就是那么残忍的逼近。

Insomnia!

2010-08-11T03:09:00.004+08:00

Now is 3.09am... i think i got insomnia... i can't fall asleep.. When i close my eye, the first things that come to my mind is about how is my result = = I start to worry my result... I hate this, every time i got insomnia is because of my studies things... I want to sleep, but i just can't sleep~ I'm tired! HELP~ My holiday life is quite bore except the 1st week that i spent the time with my friends in Port Dickson, that is very fun! Anyways, i seldom come back hometown to accompany my family, so i have to come back to see them... ^^ My home got 2 kids which is cousin. They are very cute and funny.. I am happy and excite to see them. I hope everything will be fine, everyone will be healthy. I think i gonna straighten my hair, gonna teach my sister something, gonna buy a new hand-phone, gonna buy scorpion for him... 16/8/2010 is Tanabata festival which is also known as "Qi Qiao festival" is China valentine day.. At here, i wish every couple happy valentine day~

伤心

2010-07-20T04:41:00.002+08:00

有点大受打击~看到太多美女的照片，觉得自卑~哈哈~再加上听到我不能拿到2nd class honor 的消息，更伤心~就因为我的2科psy subject 拿到一个C 一个D = =还有一科business subject拿到C...好难过= = 我睡不着！我觉得肚子有点饿~啊啊啊啊~~~~

TQ~ frenz

2010-07-13T01:51:00.002+08:00

TQ~ frenz for forgive me and accept me when i being crazy... keep saying crazy things and doing crazy stuff... i juz wan to be happy.. when i be crazy, it's because tat is something unhappy making me become like tat... Frenz.. i dunno wat to say, juz feel tat i m lucky.. i am really happy to have u all~ TQ for being my frenz... TQ for be with me when i m unhappy, although in front of u all i doesnt look like i m unhappy~

有感而发~

2010-07-08T18:38:00.002+08:00

星期二时和朋友一起游泳，好久都没游泳了。自从那时脚受伤就没游了。泳池的水好肮脏！虽然如此却和朋友们玩得很开心。昨天看了knight and day一部轻松的电影。有爱情，有动作，有搞笑！很累= = 这个星期好忙！明天要交assignment，有in class assignment 和quiz...全部东西都在一起= = 会疯掉！！下个学期的时间表出了，不知道该拿什么科？？越来越困难了= = 功课越来越繁重！我很怕啊~~

永生难忘

2010-07-05T02:29:00.002+08:00

昨天，我竟然辛苦到。。。流眼泪流到我真的快受不了，好像结束自己的生命。但是最后还是没有，被自己的眼泪搞得很累了。睡着了。。一觉起来又是一天。过了不错的一天，和室友和室友的男友，室友男朋友的妹妹一起出去。虽然当电灯泡，虽然看别人幸福很辛苦可是我至少不需要去烦恼，乱想然后更辛苦。过后回来，就和朋友去准备星期一晚上派对要用的食物。然后室友做了一份很好吃的烤面包，内陷丰富。我的世界里，我的室友关心我，不嫌弃我。我的朋友常找我，不会嫌塞车给我脸色。虽然心情是混乱的，会痛一下痛一下。但是我觉得会好的。。。因为身边围绕着的也许真的能改变。辛苦，好辛苦。。眼泪还是会在眼眶想着该不该夺眶而出，忍着的眼泪让自己哽咽着。。。忘了上一次有想做傻事的念头是几时，但是我应该会记得这一个"这是你的问题" 那么有杀伤力的一句话。竟然让我会难过到想想不开。我永远都不会忘记。

”谈情说案“

2010-06-30T05:50:00.002+08:00

看完这一部戏，我掉了很多眼泪。我没想到看这一部戏会让我想起那么多事。我想起以前的感情和现在的这一段感情。有种似成相识的感觉。。。但是里面是happy ending而我的现实生活却没有那么好。。。好多好多话。。说不完。总之是一出牵绊了我的戏。

怎么解决？

2010-06-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

偷偷摸摸的日子很累，也很不好受。当看到别人快乐时，常会想为什么这是我的命运？为什么会有这样的命运？我无法改变我的出生，无法改变我来自怎样的家庭。我唯一能做到就是尽力改变自己的未来，让自己和家人能好过些。我知道自己不够努力，常偷懒。我到底要怎么做？有时我常想我到底是我吗？怎么要为了迎合别人，想尽办法改。怎么要把自己变得那么卑微？什么时候才能够拨开明月？什么时候我才能见人？那么久了，快两年了。情况还是一样，想办法，还是一直想办法。改变还是不变。到底适合吗？到底是不是勉强？是不是习惯？是不是惯性依赖？所有的一切都没答案。我不知道怎样。脑海很多很多很多，我不会解决，我不知道怎么解决。我好累。

累。。。

2010-06-14T18:26:00.001+08:00

有好多的功课，可是我没那个心情去做，尤其是现在！我真的不知道怎么了。心情非常不好，我玩的线上游戏，无聊了。弟弟吵着要我的帐号。我坚持了好久，最后也因为真的累了给他名字和密码。坚持不下了。我有点怀念以前的一些日子，开心，幸福，快乐。长大了，烦恼好多。老了被人嫌弃。。可是年轻时也会被嫌弃，没想到还没老已经被嫌弃先了。好累，好闷。睡觉吧！！睡死吧= =

藤井树-流转之年

2010-05-14T17:45:00.002+08:00

这是藤井树的新书，里面有这么一句话“当你等待多了，你就会变得擅长等待，你会知道，哪些人值得等待，那些人该怎么等待，又或者哪些人你再怎么等待，永远也等不到。” 这句话蛮不错。但是等待是一件很花时间和青春的，等待的期限由你而定，你必须清楚哪个人该值得你花多少时间与青春去等待的，不要让自己一直等下去，到了人老珠黄的时候，等待将会是个遗憾。

清水和混合水

2010-05-05T02:09:00.002+08:00

那一种很重的石头压在心里的感觉很不好受。白开水能让人看得透彻，让人不需要烦恼。混合了很多东西的水，让人怎么看也看不清楚，让人很难看透。那种想看透的心情真的很辛苦，如果是这一种混合水就好。让别人去辛苦，自己就能一眼看透清水。安全感是什么东西？我等的又是什么东西，有时想了很累。累时，就想放弃。

HELP.. Stress

2010-04-28T22:31:00.003+08:00

HELP~ anyone can help me? I m very STRESS now... feel like wanna cry - - why tis kind of subject can make me so stress.. It is juz a simple subject, but i dun understand why ther person make it like so hard... Everything is last min... Quiz and presentation last min... Din teach oso can come out in quiz.. Help !!! I dunno how to face it tomorrow... 1 Essay, 40 MCQ and dunno how many short ans... juz 2 hour wan ppl do so much of things.. wan our life? wan to see me die = = how come dun hav any tips... Other harder subject oso give tips... Wat kind of subject is tis? GRHHHH

Heavy Mood~

2010-04-22T12:54:00.002+08:00

Yesterday when i was studied, i got a called again... A heavy call... It makes my mood down... Everytime i face this kind of problem is the time i nid to face something important such as my birthday and my exam~ Can everyone pls respect me? I m not a god, i cant control my mood so so so well... Tis things happen will make me no mood to study... I can promise tat, i do very well to protect "the things" ady... But, u promise me to do tat so.. Did u ? I feel doubtful~ U juz let me noe, wat u had done... so i wont be so doubtful! I noe u treat me very good, but treat me very good doesnt mean u solve the problem ady... Everytime i heard u say, u will do ur best to try to solve it... but did u really do tat? If u think, tis is very stressful for u, thn i guess u noe wat is my situation... I am very stressful as well...

First time forgot movie's show time....

2010-04-19T20:24:00.003+08:00

This is the very 1st time me and him forgot the movie's show time... We thought the show time is 8.00pm but actually is 7.00pm. We bought the ticket at 4.00pm thn we go shopping and eat dinner... Juz wan to wait until 8.00pm to watch movie.. When we reach there, i go to buy Ice Lemon Tea combo... Thn he take out the ticket and check which room should we go... Thn we feel weird y the room havent open... Thn we suddenly saw the movie's time is 7.00pm !!!! OMG, we miss the movie - -
Yesterday, we went to The Gardens and wanted to watch Date Night but cant get a good seat, today we went to 1u want to watch it, we got the nice seat but we miss the time... 2 times fail to watch tis movie... It is so (*@&*$^&*@*$

The Complete Ticket !!!

PASS

2010-04-09T22:08:00.002+08:00

Finally, i pass my ielts ^^ yoohoo~ Next week is a busy week... Help~~ Everyone, i passed!!!!! HEHEHE~

i hav fun today~

2010-04-09T00:19:00.002+08:00

Today, i done my so called "creative presentation", can relax abit.. but tomorrow will be another stressful day for me.. becoz i m going to collect my ielts result.. i am very worry abt it. Today after finish the presentation, me and my housemate go to pyramid's hong kong restaurant. The food are nice ^^ Keep taking picture ^^ thn we went to shopping awhile. I bought a new clothe ^^ happy, i am the person who is very rare to bought a clothe. But i hav abit "sakit hati" becoz it cost me rm49.90 juz for a top... and it is juz a small clothe. However i oso feel very happy to try many clothes and shopping wif thm... Haha~ i hav fun today ^^ woohoo~

Stress~

2010-04-04T02:07:00.005+08:00

i nvr met a subject tat the presentation make me so headache one... This is very stress and sometimes i really feel like dunwan to care abt it! Next week i hav 2 presentation,1 quiz and next next week i oso hav 2 presentation, might hav 1 quiz~ I tot tis month will be relax abit.. mana tahu, tis month more stress than last month... last month i stress becoz of ielts... whole day at home, i cant think of anything creative, it make me cant relax... my mind keep thinking... oh,shit i m dead...
Ielts result is releasing soon! 9.4.2010 the result will be release. stress!!!! pls stop!

April Fool~

2010-04-01T02:06:00.002+08:00

Today i ate my dinner wif some frenz which are chelsie, yancy, victor, nicholas and my lucky star shaun. We went to ate dinner around 9.30pm. After dinner, we went to chelsie home and played a game so called "lamy".(dunno the exact spelling) But it is fun... My first round is straight away lost. After tat, when my lucky star is sitting beside me and i start to become lucky... Continuously won 2 round. After tat we lost a few round thn we continuously won 2 round again.. It is fun, i like it. When we went back, the journey in the car is fun. They keep thinking how to talk to the tol counter's gal. Haha~ After tat, we realize it is 1/4/2010. So we started to played Jo-joan, we cheated her tat our car is "pancek" at the half way... Thn she is abit blur, so we told her it's april fool.. Thn is my turn, i played raymond. I oso talked the same story and he is really very nervous... When i told him it's april fool, he oso blur... It's funny~ haha.. I have a great dinner wif my awesome friends..

补偿？

2010-03-27T19:59:00.003+08:00

所有的事都能补偿？不管多少次，都能补偿？星期四的补偿是去看一部电影。"How to train a dragon"很不错，很可爱。也很开心。那，今天的补偿呢？有什么能补偿今天的？不管用什么来补偿，缺口还是存在。为什么别人不会被嫌弃而我却被嫌弃？我真的很差吗？所有出身好的女生就很好？我真的对这个问题很厌倦了。是否有一天我会遇上一个能接受我的人？一个和我年龄相近，思想接近的人？昨天有个朋友问我，如果你没有他你会怎样？我回答说也许就每天在家玩电脑，常和朋友出去，不会拒绝朋友的要约。今天朋友约我去他家乡，我拒绝了。因为要和他出去，结果晚餐是一个人在家吃快熟面。如果我和朋友出去，应该结局不是这样的。如果不是想到下星期将被弃在自己家对着电脑，我也不会想到要多和他待一点时间。可是这是我一个人的想法，想法的不同。。。我后悔，和家人的关系变得没那么密切，我后悔，某些事比家人重要。这些都是我才会做的事，而别人绝对不会。我要再次提醒自己，家人最重要。别人都那么对待家人，而我却笨的像只猪，对待别人别家人还要好。

IELTS speaking test !

2010-03-24T12:36:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is going to have IELTS speaking test, i am very worry about it. My English communication skill is not good, and i paid rm550 to sat for this exam is just because i wanted to fulfilled the requirement of my course. I really worried my rm550, is it worth? Will i pass the exam? I hope whoever going to take IELTS speaking test on tomorrow can pass the exam. Wish everyone good luck~

1st time went to Gold class cinema~

2010-03-14T12:11:00.006+08:00

Yesterday, i was very bore at home... Thn i kept slp slp and slp~ I said i want to go to the kuala selangor to watch the firefly~ but thn end up didn't go~ I quite unhappy abt it~ Thn he said how abt watching movie tonite, but afternoon dunwan go out, coz saturday alot of ppl in shopping mall, sunday only go to shopping mall~ Thn i dun hav any good mood ady~ At nite, we went to BBQ chicken to hav dinner, the food is quite nice~ Thn we went to 1U GSC to watched the movie... Once he step in the Gold class cinema, i shocked... i asked: why come in here? Thn he said: cant come in here? Thn i realize he booked the Alice in the Wonderland in Gold class cinema~ This is the 1st time i went to Gold Class cinema~ It is expensive!! Actually i dunno y... inside is not very comfortable, coz the air cond seems like broken down~ Thn i feel very hot, cant really enjoy~ But i still happy abt it, coz i got a surprise, a expensive surprise = = TQ to the person who try to make me happy~

* funny things: my shoes fly off when the person help me to make my sofa down = =... i think no one saw it... accept the person beside me...

羡慕还是妒嫉？

2010-03-11T23:22:00.002+08:00

是种妒嫉还是羡慕？为什么看了就觉得为什么我永远也没有这样的待遇？
什么时候这种待遇才会降临到我身上？这辈子有可能遇上吗？
我想如果真有机会遇上，真的能一直持久下去吗？
愿所有的女生都能遇上~

Birthday

2010-03-11T19:16:00.006+08:00

My birthday went to The Curve's "Bubba Gump Shrimp Restaurant" to hav dinner wif wilson n my boyfriend. The food is not that nice but it is expensive~ So i dun feel it's worth. But i like the atmosphere... There are also a few of ppl celebrate their birthday at there. The staff sing birthday song for the birthday person and the person hav to be stand on the chair~ It is fun, but i not dare to try~ We order one appetizer and two set of meal, it cost rm100++.They put the drinks meal on a table ball racket, it is funny~ One interesting things is we no nid to call the staff, we juz nid to turn a board from run forrest run to stop forrest stop and they will stop n serve us. ^^ For me it is a new things so i feel it is interesting.

The day after my birthday, my frenz sing birthday song for me n gave me two muffin n a book. Some of the frenz oso gave me some present. I m happy ^^

Should be satisfic about whatever i have. I miss my family, I wish i can celebrate my 21st birthday wif my family...

失望与期望

2010-03-06T15:23:00.002+08:00

一次又一次的失落只会换来一次又一次的不信任~
如果别人对你的信任已经没多少了，你就应该知道自己让人失望多少次。
这个世界还有多少人能值得信任？
一个，两个，三个。。。还有吗？
因为信任，所以寄托高。
因为失望，所以不敢期望~
难道这个世界要所有人没有任何期望才可以？
难道这个世界要让所有人失望后才知道期望的可贵？

一个人

2010-03-01T00:05:00.002+08:00

我很想很想出去看看~总觉得今天外面会很热闹因为是新年的最后一天了！可是我却没能出去，一个人在家对着电脑玩游戏，一个人在家读书！一个人在家不知道要怎么办才好！一个人在家等着快乐的到来！一个人在家想着我真的很讨厌自己！为什么我的英文那么差！英文差让我很多事都做不了！assignment我需要读过很多遍！别人读一遍就能写了，我要读很多遍然后还是不会写！ielts要到了，可是却没那个时间去好好搞好我的英文！外面放着烟花，可是我的心情却不是很好！总觉得这一个外面很热闹，可是我却一个人很冷清的过着。。读书！！好难啊！但是，做工更难！我要怎样呢？撞墙！！！！

许愿

2010-02-28T00:43:00.003+08:00

还没到我的生日，可是我能先许愿吗？我想要个惊喜，而且是指定的人给的。不管怎样，我很谢谢去年那些陪我一起庆祝生日的朋友给了我那么一个难忘的生日惊喜。还记得去年在生日前几天接到些不开心的消息。然后还要封口不说。等过完生日后才说，真的让我蛮难受的。原本应该是快快乐乐的生日的，可是却被影响。不过当我那群朋友帮我庆祝时，我真的觉得很感动。觉得自己并没被遗忘。我常觉得自己在这群朋友之中很多余。因为也许觉得他们每个都有所谓的很close很close的朋友。能说一切知心话，可是我却没有。不管怎样，他们并没有遗忘我，所以我应该觉得庆幸。我希望我的家人健健康康，平平安安。希望我和朋友们的感情顺利，长久。希望考试顺利。希望我和他的感情不需要再受到威胁。希望所有的一切万事顺利。我，是幸运的。

突然的一场感动

2010-02-19T00:55:00.003+08:00

突然的关心让我很感动，谢谢你。我没想到你还记得。起起落落的心情让人很不好受。我不知道为什么就只是很难过，掉眼泪。昨天我看回以前的日记就只写着某人某人。看回以前的通信就觉得很搞笑，普通的人都用讲话，可是我们却用通信，还是说些普普通通的话。还有一只小公仔会讲话的。偶尔回来还是会拿出来按按几下。我不知道我真的好像刀插下去拔了出来，慢慢康复。然后又再插一刀，血流不止。我不想看到，不想听到，不想理会有关的人与事。我不敢说，有些事我不知道有还是没有，只能说不可以。

Happy Valentine's Day

2010-02-07T21:57:00.004+08:00

Yesterday having a happy date... actually is celebrating for valentine's day... 1st we went to Mid Valley, we walk around... me n him was spoting the present. But at the end we didn't buy any present in Mid Valley... We oso met jojoan n kah yan at there... He said very coincidence coz always met thm... Last time at 1u oso met thm.. We bought mid nite ticket for 3D avatar.. it's very expensive rm54, coz we watched at The Garden. Be4 that, we went to a chinese restaurant to having dinner... After tat feel like ntg to buy thn he ask me whether wan go 1u to walk around or not thn i said ok. Thn we continue our 2nd round at 1u... Haha. Finally he found the present tat he wanted to buy for me. He bought me a domo-kun beg, which i called the beg "kaka" haha~ N i wanted to buy the couple shirt for us... but abit expensive so we share share abit... It's red color, can wear it as chinese new year shirt oso... haha~ Happy Valentine's day to everyone...

1st time in hospital~

2010-01-23T14:43:00.002+08:00

1st time injury until nid to sent to hospital~ i hurt my leg becoz of swimming~ ppl swim, i swim~ but i swim until hurt my leg - - becoz of the stupid casa swimming pool got a hole, i stuck my toes in the hole, when i took it off, it hurt~ i tot it juz hurt my nail... so i continue swim, but after awhile it is seriusly pain thn i went back to my unit n bath~ after tat when i wan to wear my pants, it is very hard to wear coz the toes tat i hurt make until my whole leg cant move - - thn i faster call raymond bring me to clinic... after went to clinic i ate the medicine n slp~ i woke up at 5.15am... i feel like how come my eye so itchy... thn i go to see mirror, OMG! my eye swelling! medical allergy AGAIN! tis time my nose oso swelling! i cant breath by my nose, have to use my mouth to breath, it makes me sore throat! thn i call raymond ask him to bring me to hospital, but he ask me to call him again if it is more serius.. thn i call my aunt, my aunt shock n prepare to bring me to hospital... when i reach hospital, a guard saw my leg disability so he bring the wheel chair n let me sit on it... thn the doctor check n ask nurse to giv me injection... 1st time i noe the feeling of watching the nurse prepare for the injection... i got 2 injection, one is my wrist another one is buttocks! it's pain! becoz the nurse rub my buttocks tat the part for the injection!!! i wanted to shout!! after tat i went for x-ray for my toes! luckily my toes's bone din broken! thn finally i can leave the hospital n went back to slp! i m very very tired ! Now, i almost recover... my allergy is fine ady... n i can walk ady... but kind of cacat...

付出与需求

2010-01-14T18:06:00.002+08:00

一段感情路上只有一个人付出一个人接受会累吗？曾经听过类似一个人付出然而心里是想着得到同样的回报，那就不是付出，而是一种需求手法~我很好奇我所做的多少事是真正的付出而不是一种需求？我想真正的付出我没做过多少次，但是需求我的确做了很多。我是自私的。最近都很忙，虽然没真正的上课，只是去学院听syllabus和duty罢了。但弄得我很累。我也很开心可以常和那一群吵吵闹闹的朋友一起癫！我不知道用什么来形容自己的幸运能认识他们，和他们成为好朋友。朋友们，我想说我很开心也很荣幸能够认识你们。

New Semester is Started

2010-01-13T01:28:00.002+08:00

New Semester is Started~ Today is the 2nd day~ The result haven come out, might be come out on next week~ So our add n drop week delay until next week~ Officially announcement: I CAN'T TAKE UIU SUBJECT TIS SEM! becoz of some "rules". I must work hard! New Year i must have new challenge~ Fayette house event is quite alot and quite busy~ I hope i can do well in my study, fayette house, relationship and frenship~

第一次“煮”。。。

2010-01-11T01:59:00.002+08:00

第一次做汤圆，第一次煮ABC汤，第一次煮番薯汤，第一次煮药材汤，第一次清理鸡肉。原来鸡肉不是那么容易处理！第一次觉得原来做这些事不麻烦，很幸福。第一次这么不懒惰的很自愿的去做。我所做的这些也许对别人来说只是很小的一件事，可是我很用心去做。我是很很很懒惰到极点的人。会去做这一些事，证明我在改变！我希望他看到！也许过后开学了，开始忙了，我也不会再这么勤劳的做这些事！但我希望他记得这些都是为他而做的。Yion，加油！

释放

2009-12-19T13:38:00.004+08:00

突然觉得释放了，终于说出口了。。。昨天一直想说的话，收着没敢说，也许还没什么勇气去面对答案。说出去整个人好像很轻松。。。我的生活重心慢慢在撤换中，所以听到了答案，我没那么难过。。我也知道后天要和朋友出去了，要快乐了！！^^ 后天就不用孤单一人关在房间那么讽刺的假装很自豪能看完那么多集的戏。其实是因为无聊没事做寂寞才有那种时间去看完。。。期待后天和朋友出去玩，总能带给我快乐的你们，谢谢^^今天和明天的日子不知道要怎么办，昨天快快把戏看完了！导致我没戏看！哈哈！！等下一定要去游泳！！！

32 episode drama finish in half day...

2009-12-18T20:29:00.002+08:00

i cant believe i finish a 32 episode drama in half day... Finish so fast... tomorrow dunno wat to do... luckily still got a drama can watch but only 21 episode i think oso will finish it very fast... thn will sienz again... wat to do ? wat to do ? wat to do ? these few day feel the stomach not feeling well... dunno is gastric de prob or not.... abit tired... whole day juz watch drama n play fb tis kind of life is very bore n tired...

Avatar is very nice...

2009-12-17T18:01:00.004+08:00

Finally i finish my exam~ I went to watch Avatar with frenz... It is super nice~ When the movie is finish, got ppl clap hand, tat show the movie is nice!! My mood is become very excited after finish watching the movie... thn when i back home, suddenly the mood change again after a phone call... All my excited drop... I can enjoy my holiday now~ Suddenly wanted to go back hometown right now... Since tat is ntg to do at here... I was thinking tonite wan to go which place... But after the phone call, i think i noe whr i should go... I should go out wif frenz, hav fun wif thm, find back my happy mood~ Frenz, i nid u all, when i m happy, when i am sad... U all are the one tat stay beside me...

至：失恋的朋友

2009-12-11T01:31:00.003+08:00

最近，发生了很多不开心的事。我有个朋友失恋了，情况和我曾经经历过的相似。她勾起了我埋藏在心里的感觉。一段曾经很难过的日子，一段花了漫长时间康复的日子，一段不能被遗忘的日子。。我和那个朋友谈论起我曾经的事和她现在发生的事。当我听到她的事时，我的第一感觉是心痛。也许是曾经的感同身受，很想给她一个拥抱。但是我没有，因为怕她抱着我痛哭，我们还有事要做，不能就这样失控。失恋，是让我们学习成长的一个过程。比起那些还没有失恋过的人，我们比他们早学会了去面对，去克服。。。回想起来，真的觉得不错，自己曾经有过一段这么难忘的经历。
至：失恋的朋友，
他让你学到了不少东西，所以还能和他做朋友！他是一个曾经对你很好的人，也是一个教会你很多的人，所以他是一个特别的朋友。下面都是些歌，听完后收拾那些伤感，用一个新的心情去面对这一个特别的朋友！

单身潜逃
我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装
不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌
我也和你一样
曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤
我们都是一样
相信永远不远
但坚持却有点难
就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的铐
摺叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道
就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷
摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

你最近还好吗？
挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什么好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

放不下
你好吗
你的夜是不是跟我的一样漫长
是不是
还把我给你的爱好好戴在手上
要坚强
我常常对着镜子里的人大声讲
虽然说
孤独的想一个人好像一种惩罚
MSN上太多的路人甲
偶尔你也该上来说说话
想着你的温柔
想着你的模样
我放不下
都说过了再见
我们各自飞翔
各自长大
抱紧爱会挣扎
放开爱会心慌
神也很忙
到底要实现哪个愿望
离开你那麽傻
可以后侮吗
风很大
怕你又穿得太少会让自己着凉
我很棒
一个人换了灯泡房间变得很亮
每一天
发生的事情我都好想要跟你讲
爱很怪
什麽都介意最后又什麽都原谅
Ooh心里最深的牵挂
越想遗忘越不能忘

Suddenly, final is coming~

2009-11-28T18:55:00.002+08:00

Final exam is coming~ Next week will be a bz week coz alot of things hav to do... My assignment due is next week thn fayette activity oso on next week... I suppose to faster finish my assignment now... But i dunno how to do.... Dunno whr to edit... Broke... I nid to go back home n stay so tat i dun nid any expenses... Hope holiday coming soon~ I have to finish my assignment facing final exam thn only can relax to enjoy my holiday... During the holiday, i oso hav to prepare for TOEFL... Thn next year will be a new starting point for me becoz i joined fayette house n will be bz to do activity...

至另一个世界的公公婆婆

2009-11-18T12:56:00.003+08:00

不久前，我刚失去了一个很疼我的祖父。我是家里的第一个孙子虽然说是外孙，但大家都很疼爱我。我得到特别特别多的关爱。我的祖父祖母都很疼我，带我到处去。他们去哪里玩就带着我。在我一年级的时候，我最爱的祖母离开了我们到了另一个世界。所有人都很痛心，因为她是一位很好的祖母和妈妈也是一位受人尊敬的老奶奶。还记得有一次我必须去补习，妈妈他们都要去祭拜她，可是我不能跟。我哭着说想去，因为我想念她。当时还小，也不是很会想，总是闹便扭。自从祖母过世后，我和祖父的感情也疏远了。再加上他有了女朋友，我更是连称呼都不称呼了，不叫他公公。几个月前，我的阿姨对我说如果你不叫他，就只会让他离你更远，离他的女朋友更近。所以我终于又开口叫他公公了。没想到才几个月他竟然里我们而去。很突然地离开，让我措手不及。非常非常后悔之前对他的不孝。我希望他原谅我，希望他和祖母能好好的在另一个世界开开心心。

大扫除的失望

2009-11-06T17:58:00.004+08:00

今天我牺牲了和人见面的时间，因为我需要大扫除。我最近都很累，回到家头痛，很累很累。昨天约了和人见面，但是因为大扫除到太迟，塞车时间就没办法和人见面了。我突然觉得好像是一种报应。今天让老师失望了，现在自己也尝到那种失望的感觉。牺牲换来了失望。。。但是老师的失望，我知道真的很重。。以后以后我需要牺牲的时间更多，是不是现在放弃了那种会换来失望的梦想会好过一点。以后就不需要失望。不知道，很累。。。请给我一些喘气的时间。我真的很累，很烦。搬家要烦，一切的一切都要去想。一切停止好吗？

Bore

2009-11-02T23:35:00.002+08:00

Afternoon i went to watch Cloudy with a chance of meat balls. It's nice... Better than the G-force~ Abit bore day~ Keep playing facebook game the whole day~ Feel like very useless~ Juz now went out to ate steamboat as my dinner~ Wed is my 1st day to duty in fayette house hope everythings fine~ Gambateh new commitee~

Extra concern...

2009-10-25T12:17:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, when i woke up after a few hour, i got a call from my secondary tuition teacher. I have abit miss her so i did sms her few days ago... but no one reply, i tot she din use the phone num ady. But thn when i pick up the phone n feel weird, who is this person? thn she told me, i m ur tuition teacher, i shock coz the phone din show her num. N she told me she is in Hong Kong, will be back after 2 years. I feel very happy, n chat awhile wif her. After that, i will very unconfortable becoz i feel sick. cough, sore throat, flu... Flu is the most serius one. I feel very unhappy coz i dun get extra concern from that person. Nitez, my condition more serius, sore throat until i cant speak at all~ I feel sad. My roomate n housemate very concern me. Tq u all~ My roomate noe me unhappy becoz of tat person so she sms tat person, thn tat person come my house n take away porridge for me. I cant stablize my emotion. I still very unhappy. When i sick, i nid ur extra concern, but whr is it ?

UPDATE!

2009-10-14T01:12:00.003+08:00

long time din update my blog ady... Actually many things happen~ i juz celebrate my 1 year anniversary with raymond~ The jojo aning birthday~ Go to orchid park shooting and melaka! Wah, the melaka trip is ntg to shoot oso = = i tot got bring us to nice place n shoot some historical place... mana tahu... OMG... spent rm20 to melaka eat lunch thn bring the whole sweat n tired body back subang... anyways after the melaka trip me, jojoan, kahyan, lett n cally go to USJ9 eat banana leaf... Its no bad... I hope tat My COLLEGE can organise some more meaningful trip for student... haiz... mid term is coming.... Whr is my mood for STUDY ? Come back... My mood n spirit of Study.... 招魂hahha~
Gambateh for cognition quiz....
Study hard....study hard...study hard....

everyone hav a sweet dream... i want oso

2009-09-04T06:43:00.002+08:00

it is 6.45am, i m not feeling well after ate a lot of foods. My stomach pain - - wind~~ help~ i juz slpt for 2 hour. start from 2.30am until 4.30am thn i cant fall aslp again. it is very tough tat can slp well after ate a lot of foods. i got cls in the morning, photography cls. My roomate is slping and me typing in the dark. abit challenging for me coz couldnt see the keyboard. Haha~

想

2009-08-28T14:44:00.004+08:00

关心我的人很多，一直要我怎么做的人也很多~ 我和你怎么做别人都看着。。。我和你不容易啊~我承受的我想你知道，我知道自己对你很霸道，我知道我很任性。有些事，我真的累。好多人说不要放弃，谢谢你们，谢谢你们的鼓励。我很希望很希望能顺利地解决这件事。希望你会从这件事里懂得什么是承担责任。有些东西我不敢也不想说太多。每个人的生活背景不一样，在这些过程中学习面对某些事的方式也不同。一直被掐着脖子的感受很辛苦，我不想让人看到。一直努力的坚强下去，但会累，会想哭。“担当”这个字真沉重。
听着the climb这首歌不知道是如何去形容我心里的感觉。我很想去做一些事，但我必须想想我会得到什么样的结果。我需要承担结果。我不是不想，我很想，你以为我不想吗？我不能。也许有时人家都觉得我想很多，但是承担结果的那个人是我！所以我必须去想那么多。站在我这里看看想想。

我该怎么办？

2009-08-25T00:37:00.003+08:00

我再也承受不起天下来当被盖的态度了。真的真的。面对好多的问题，我一直努力的想去解决，但是单凭我一个人的力量是不够的。子弹扫射到我很痛，我努力的穿了好多避弹衣，但是伤害还是造成了。还没复原又要继续面对战争。我一个人承受到很痛很痛。我心里的感受说了很多很多次，你真的完完全全的了解我的处境了吗？我们能想个解决方案一起解决吗？

shogun & steamboat..

2009-08-06T17:18:00.002+08:00

monday i went to ate shogun in sunway with bf and his frenz.. it is very cheap around rm 46.70 if not mistaken... i felt the 1u's shogun is better thn sunway... coz the food in 1u more delicious for me... the sunway food hav different kinds of choice but not tat delicious... i ate alot... thn nite my stomach ache... it's wind = = even i drink the eno oso no use thn around 3.30am go to watch doctor and the doctor said i'm gastric... it is very simply to said it!!! she juz see i put my hand at which part of my stomach and ask me do u wan injection and did u vomit ? these two simple question and said i'm gastric... i'm very angry coz simply said... thn it cost rm50!!!! for two medicine... and it is useless ! i din feel well after taking the medicine... it is wind actually .... thn i cant even sleep well.. next day only feel better... thn weds day went to ate steamboat wif kisiao frenz which is a farewell gatering for jason and jasmine... after finish eating i feel stomach ache again... wind again = = thn i ate the wind's medicine... but still not feeling well... thn early in the morning i drink the eno thn only feel better... so conclusion is i think i nid to eat the wind medicine + the eno only can feel better!

Morib trip

2009-08-06T17:01:00.002+08:00

Many funny things happened in the trip... Juz like chelsie driving skill abit scary... haha~ i think when i hav car maybe will like tat oso = = when reach jenjarom thn go to eat ice kacang... after that buy cake and go to morib... reach morib we wan to check in and something is happen... we hav 15 person... it cant hav 15 person in one department... so we nid to rent 2 department... after tat go to the beach and the beach actually not clean, hav many crab~ and walk on the sand abit yucky... coz many hole of the crab ... abit it still ok for me but no tat ok for jess n chelsie... both of thm walk and scream = = haha~ jess kena splash thn throw into the sea... hahaha~ we take many nice picture at there.. most of us jump and nic & kah yan took the photo of us... thn we go back.. some of us go to bath and me n chelsie work in the kitchen to prepare dinner for thm... although not very delicious dinner but still ok... thn celebrate wif lett and victor... tat tak perasaan victor keep say we will celebrate wif him... now is truth... we bought bikini for lett and guitar for victor... after finish celebrate their birthday thn we play the most fun game tat is 007!!!! cally and kristy drunk - - cally said she is "er mei pai" and kristy keep say she is not drunk... thn both of thm go to a room~ both of thm keep hit each other ass = = so lame.... its like very fun when u see thm to hit each other ass~ thn we pillow talk in the living room~ talk many things! i only hold until 4.30am... yancy is 5.30am and jess thm all like 7am... i'm not tat clear abt wat time they had slp.. thn we wake up and prepare to back home... after ate breakfast and arrange the beg and clean the department thn start our journey to chelsie and jojo's school... their school having canteen day... kristy left after fetching cally thm to jojo's school. when we reach there thn go to buy water coz it's very hot... and both of thm said it's not tat good conpare wif last time.... after tat we go to hawker centre to hav our lunch and go to aeon walk around thn back to jenjarom... thn we go to ate "大炒" thn back to jojo's house... thn jojoan, kah yan, cally and lett go back to subang... left a few ppl in jojo house... they watch "i do i do" after tat put the dolls to look victor slping ... haha~ it is funny! thn next day we go to ate breakfast which is bak kuh teh! thn back to subang... it's briefly abt the trip ^^ it is fun ^^

一个不想呆在KL的假期

2009-07-17T18:48:00.002+08:00

为什么知道对人有所期待会伤害自己，却还是会期待？人好像就是这么得可笑。。。其实已经起楚了解，已经知道结果了，却还要想办法去挽回。已经定下的结果还会因为什么原因而改变呢？我的想法不是你的决定，而你的决定就是决定。有时我真的期待和朋友一起上课的日子，因为都很好玩，都能笑一笑。对，我很懒惰上课，但我很喜欢和朋友一起。甚至星期六和星期日去上课也好。因为我可以不用一个人呆在家里面对着不能和我说话，不能逗我笑的电脑。可是有时我很懒惰又会想不去学校上课，在家一直睡觉。读书时期陪伴朋友的日子都会比较多。。。我期待放假，放假不要让我失望哦。。。我去klang玩，去port dickson玩。我只能祈祷我能顺利的去玩。
我的假期不想在KL度过。陪着家人是好一点的，因为他们能陪伴我，呵呵！妈妈能煮我爱吃的菜，会去和弟弟吵架！哇哈哈！抢电脑来用！看dvd看到不需要睡觉！我应该去了klang然后就回来kl准备回去hometown然后再回来准备去port dickson.去完port dickson就准备开学了。一个不想呆在KL的假期。

HARRY POTTER- the half blood prince & OKU

2009-07-16T21:42:00.002+08:00

Today me, chelsie, jojo, jess, victor, lett, nicholas chow, ilex, michelle, chee wei and joan went to summit watch movie "HARRY POTTER- the half blood prince" It is a quite nice show, although i hav abit confuse but it still nice... Inside the cinema, there are a few of situation: joan fall asleep, ilex keep asking the movie plot, jess scream and jojo, chelsie, jess crazy when saw a handsome guy inside the movie... thats all i noe... wahahha~
Today me n jess be a OKU one whole day!!! Very poor~ walk cant walk properly... i walk like pregnany~~~ = =
Juz saw my ugly photo in kisiao blog that had been capture by lett - - I didn't realise yesterday i slpt at badminton court they had capture my photo = =

Midsummer Night's prom~~~

2009-07-13T17:57:00.014+08:00

Everyone is very beautiful n handsome on tat nitez... I'm very happy can see ownself become so beautiful ^^ TQ every fayette house n student counsel committe...

BBQ

2009-07-13T17:44:00.006+08:00

A happy time at tat nite.... BBQ in college~

累

2009-07-09T16:10:00.003+08:00

这个短学期真的很赶，很多东西要做，很多事很多事。一直一直做，一直烦，好像不能停下来慢慢休息。我很压力，脾气很暴躁。现在，好像心力交瘁了，心真的累了。不知道为什么，只想好好的哭一场。。。这是爱哭包的专利。考完年终考是不是就会结束了？我很讨厌，真的很讨厌。

Mid term终于结束了，新的挑战又要来了！

2009-07-03T20:16:00.004+08:00

明天就是两个星期没见到你了。我知道自己最近才对你发脾气，也许因为压力。又或许那只是借口。或许就心情不好想骂人。你就遭殃了。考完mid term了。要present 了，要去prom了，要交research paper 了，要final exam了！哈哈，等你回来爱我。。。听着she的爱来过。。。我很久没和你出去逛街了。你回来时带我我去逛街！其实我想念妈妈煮的菜和汤，我想要的食物可以是妈妈煮的菜吗？不可能对吧？哈哈。。。我想念你哦！我很羡慕很羡慕朋友，考完试就休息了到处去。我也要！哈哈，可是我星期一要present了，都还没有准备好。都是我懒惰，所以不能出去玩。
烦！
ps:希望它会记得昨天讲过的话！不过算了，每天都那么忙！忘了也无所谓。我该靠自己的，这是我的责任不是他的。

我想你！！！你知道吗？

2009-06-29T20:43:00.003+08:00

我很想念很想念你，在心情很不好时我需要你陪着我。在快乐时想和你分享！不知道为什么这次你回家，我却想你马上出现在我身边。你真的知道我有多想你吗？在半年考，压力蛮大，在short semester 拿这三个难搞的科目我真的很辛苦。我不喜欢做research paper.....不喜欢考试,可是我必须去接受。。。自己给自己压力，担心CGPA会跌。这种辛苦的日子，还要三年多才会过。在这同时快乐的日子也慢慢在消失中。和这些朋友还有多少个日子？未知数。。。我不要再压力了！
我觉得好像一个月没见面了，其实不过就一个星期多。。。我要见你！！！！！！！！！

如果我是一只苍蝇。。。

2009-06-18T19:28:00.004+08:00

如果我是一只苍蝇我就可以到处飞，飞到我想见的人的身边。哈哈，为什么选苍蝇补选其他会飞的动物我也不清楚。就突然想到苍蝇。我可以飞回家吃妈妈煮的饭，可以飞到海边享受海风，可以飞到想念的人身边看看他，可以飞到朋友身边陪陪朋友。。。不过朋友呢也有常常陪伴在身边了，哈哈。。。常常见到我应该也厌烦。。。呵呵。偷偷看看他们的精彩生活也不错，感受一下他们的快乐，他们美丽的生活。
想念妈妈煮的饭菜，现在总是吃外头的。身体都不知道不健康到极点了。想念家里可爱的小孩。。。总是作弄他们，哈哈。
ps:搞不好还没到目的地就被电死了。

Thalassemia

2009-06-18T17:56:00.002+08:00

Hey, everyone pls support my biology class group assignment.
How well do u noe abt THALASSEMIA?
http://www.bio-thalassemia.blogspot.com/
This is the link to my topic.
Come n support... TQ

Simple happy day

2009-06-16T18:51:00.003+08:00

Today we go taipan de "辣椒板面" but din open thn we go summit hav lunch.... He brought pringles for me ^^ He still rmb tat i said i wan to eat ^^
Long time din drive car ady... Today i drive abit ^^ Happy... Although juz in the car park turn round and round... Haha... The car is big abit scary... At 1st, i forgot to put down the hand brake... The person beside me suddenly said: "u haven put down the hand brake !!!" I shock n suddenly brake... thn he put it down the hand brake... I park the car straight leh !!! Hehe... Happy... A simple happy day ^^

雨过天晴

2009-06-15T00:24:00.003+08:00

昨天晚上终于雨过天晴了。今天下午他帮忙我housemate完成拍摄功课。过后我们就去看戏，看drag me to the hell~ sound effect is great!!! make me very scare.... i scare until no dare to see somemore i bite his hand... 想起了有点好笑，抓他的手抓到很紧，突然吓到一下就无意识咬下去。哈哈。。。这是我有史以来看恐怖片最夸张的反应。
一场雨，让我们更加紧密。一场雨，让我们更加会珍惜对方。一场雨后就会是晴天。

不痛

2009-06-13T16:28:00.005+08:00

有点辛苦...要忍着...好伤心...哈哈...

ps/我发现只有在水里，我才会感觉不到自己在掉眼泪...
别人看不起我们的爱情，连我们自己也轻视它吗？

一个没有骚扰人的日子

2009-06-12T22:04:00.006+08:00

"不被了解的人最可悲...原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪，原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语...我不懂得如何更爱你....." 看起来蛮悲伤的一句话。msn上一个朋友的nick name...也许心还没打开，让人不能太了解吧...我也不太清楚情况...只是觉得不错但有点悲的一句话。
今天很充实，很累。我喜欢这样的日子，是累但不会因为太闷而一直骚扰人。呵呵^^

i love this picture very much!!!!!!!!!

能不能
jason:第一次当我见到你
你说你紧张的忘了呼吸
记忆里我只想玩玩而已
在一起没想过这问题
你说你从来没有忘记
我们第一个夜里
我一边说我爱你
一边喘着气
sorry 我爱你
是指你的身体
我不知道你的需要
你对我的要求我从来没做到
你怎么受的了
但我总是只见到你微笑
痛苦总是往肚子里吞掉
只希望有一天我能明了你的好
我假装对你不在意
假装失去我的记忆
为了隐藏以前痛苦回忆
我选择放弃
放心去爱人的权利
因为我不相信自己不相信你
不相信一句话叫做真心真意
我选择绝情绝义
你把我当作情人
我却把你当作敌人
我的人生就是充满猜疑忌恨
不要浪费精神
在我身上寻找永恒
执迷不悔只会在你我身上
造成一道道永远的伤痕 bady
landy:能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我天长地久
不要对我若即若离
让我伤心泪流
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我一直到最后
从今以后剩下的路
要你陪我走
joson:你一定觉得我坏谁都不爱
随你去猜我是在什么心态
面对你给我的爱
你对我好我就对你越坏
但我心里一直有声音跟我告白
它说不能没有你的存在
好怪想爱却又说不出来
为何心软为何心软
为何你从不会对我心烦
已经有了答案
我却不敢去看
面对你不再反感
发现我冰冷的心感受到你的温暖
该怎么办
我现在爱你会不会太晚
你是唯一我想跟你在一起
不想再和你分离
oh~就算外面的女孩子她们叫我baby
在我心底只有一个老婆叫做vicky
不知道该怎么说
但我知道怎么做
我不会一错再错
忘了以前痛苦的过程
我们要的只是结果
你问我会一起多久
我不知道大概一辈子够不够
牵着你的手往前走
我只听到你说
landy:能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我天长地久
不要对我若即若离
让我伤心泪流
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我一直到最后
从今以后剩下的路
要你陪我走
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我天长地久
lan jas:能不能能不能能不能够
对着我说爱我伤心泪流
landy:能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我一直到最后
lan jas:就一直到最后

Result..

2009-06-05T00:46:00.004+08:00

Wed i went to take my result... I dun felt my result is good = =" But should be satisfy ady... I get 1A,1B and 2C... This sem i should be more hard working ady!! I taking 3 hard subject.... It will be very heavy for me....
Gambateh!!!!
Wed afternoon i went out wif my aunt oso... We go to 100yen n subang parade.. Aunt bought jor new perfume for me... Its jasmine favor de... I like it... When i juz reach home... Thn lemon call me n said he is almost reach my home... I shock thn faster change a shirt n go out... We went to The Garden watch Night at the museum 2.. It is interesting n funny...
Dear, Gambateh in ur assignment n ur coming exam~

TQ~ my frenz

2009-06-05T00:23:00.011+08:00

Long time din write blog ady... Its really fun to go out wif my college's frenz... It can see many stupid, idiot, funny things... Haha~
We r 13 person in a Naza Ria~ If u know tat car, i guess when u saw my picture, u noe where i sit~ Haha!!
Besides that, i go there oso go to meet my honey.... Tq honey... HEHE~
TQ, my frenz~ bring such memorable trip for me ^^

Mother's Day

2009-05-13T00:50:00.007+08:00

The day be4 mother's day me n family go to hav dinner at a restaurant... We wait for around 1 and the 1/2 hour... Thn only can start eating = = The kitchen's chief didn't show off thn the boss cook by himself... so poor ... i saw a few table's ppl cant wait thn juz left... Haiz... Sunday is mother's day but i hav to go back KL coz Monday i hav a exam and it juz take around 15 min! Becoz of 15min speaking test thn i nid to rush back to KL and miss my mother's day! ZZZZZZZ

errr.... pls dun mind it... i din take the food be4 we ate.. i juz take it after finish it... coz i think no one will be taken tis kind of ugly picture... haha

My Holiday !!!

2009-05-09T01:45:00.010+08:00

Thursday, i go out with mummy. I wan to accompany her to buy something... But then suddenly i told her i nid to buy a pair of slipper... Then after she bought her things thn we go to shoes shop n see... I cant believe i saw a pair of high heel it sold rm 25! Last time i saw that high heel sold rm 59.90. Now only rm 25... I cant abide ! I bought it n thn i bought a pair of slipper. It only cost me rm 5... So i bought 2 pair of shoes juz cost me rm 30! Amazing!!!

Friday, i go to secondary school to collect my SPM cert. After that go out with frenz. Then nitez me n my sister plan to celebrate mother's day. Then i go to bought the cake, fried chicken and drinks... After that back home celebrate.. Although it is juz a small n simple celebration... We all very happy ^^ My another sister cant celebrate wif my mothers she in KL... So we call her and ask her talk to my mummy ^^
Muackz mummy, a early happy mother's day...

Finish my Final Exam~

2009-05-03T18:19:00.004+08:00

Yesterday done my final n thn go to hav lunch wif frenz.... Thn they keep planning nite session! Plan to go to Kuchai Lama Yamcha~ Haha... I never Yamcha wif thm at nitez! Tis is the 1st time! Is really Fun thn suddenly i heard Kristy laugh very loud! Is chelsie make something embarass things thn make her laugh so loud!

Today suppose to celebrate wif dear... Celebration for his birthday... Early in the morning i wake up thn done the birthday card.... After tat wake him up thn hav lunch... After finish lunch, i hav abit tired... I tot wanna go out ady... But no. He ask me to slp awhile... When i woke up is ady 4.30pm I blame myself y slp so long.... I dunwan to slp so long, i wan to spent more time to go out hav fun wif him.... His birthday i cant really celebrate wif him, we celebrate earlier thn .... I slp! Tomorrow wanna go back hometown ady. After tat maybe a week cant meet thn come back KL to hav my MUET exam... thn go to Penang n he prepare his Final exam... Is like no time to hav Fun...

谢谢

2009-04-27T18:55:00.002+08:00

大家，我没事。。最近太压力了。读书一直读不进脑，所以比较情绪化。让大家担心了，真不好意思。但，我很感激你们。因为你们让我知道，我是被保护的。谢谢。考试加油！考完试后，吃吃吃玩玩玩疯疯疯！今天考完一张试卷了。明天要演讲，后天的考试最使我压力！8题作文，我要怎么办啊！！！！！加油加油！

朋友的关心可以让你找到一点点地温暖，我只想对些还在角落躲着掉泪的朋友说，你很幸福，你有我们！她呢？她只不过有那么一个他！你会找到更好的。。。世界末日，陪在你身边的永远都是你的家人还有一些你的好朋友。

黑色还能变淡吗？

2009-04-24T18:23:00.004+08:00

昨天是蓝色，今天是黑蓝色但瞬间变成了黑色。我以为黑蓝色会变浅绿色，是我想得太多。黑色还能变淡吗？开始有些怀疑。哈哈。也许可以。朋友们今天让我心里的颜色迟疑，是否该换淡色了。我希望和朋友的日子永远都会是快乐的。今天有个朋友说只有朋友不会伤害我们。但理智上我回答不。不理智的话，也许我会说是。因为朋友带给我的快乐远远掩盖过伤害。昨天我心情不好，很想很想。。。我以为今天。。。我很安静。直到上一刻才清醒。

我想念大海，想念家人，想念姐和哥，想念苇婷，想念阿玲，想念风。

不想懂得

2009-04-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

不想懂得
当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐

拥有了同时也失去什么
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
互相照顾就是幸福的

当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐

拥有了同时也失去什么
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是感动的

我愿意一秒钟放弃全宇宙
只在只有我们紧靠着的小星球

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我多不舍得多不懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是感动的

说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我多不舍得多不懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是感动的

朋友

2009-04-21T02:55:00.002+08:00

朋友很重要，没有朋友只有家人和情人是会蛮的孤单。不久前，我在学校里等着朋友来，那段时间我突然觉得很孤单。一个人坐在cafeteria等着朋友。看着别人都跟着朋友聊天。真的觉得好寂寞。我一直很庆幸自己认识了一群好朋友。朋友们，谢谢。我很庆幸认识你们。

没有朋友的日子，我不像是我自己。
没有朋友的日子，我的生活不会像现在的多姿多彩。
没有朋友的日子，我今年的生日不会有惊喜。
没有朋友的日子，我的心事就可能会埋在心里。
没有朋友的日子，我不会有那些与朋友快乐和疯狂的回忆。

财富不是真正的朋友,而朋友却是真正的财富
　　--申宝峰

也许，我做到坚持了

2009-04-19T22:30:00.003+08:00

今天，我并没有说出我想说的话。也许，我做到坚持了，可是我的心痛的想哭。但我没哭。也许是还不习惯坚持。我不知道有什么想说的。应该只有这些。

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手
如果有一天我们有缘再见
你会不会想起说过的永远

Earth Day Camp

2009-04-19T22:02:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I reach college early in the morning. Then help thm to carry things to the bus. After that, i fall aslp in the bus, beczo i m too tired. When reach the destination, everyone is very happy and excited. We put down everyting and thn prepare to hiking. We separate into two groups. One group go to river another group go to waterfall. I choose the waterfall groups. The waterfall groups is really very tough. The journey is tough. I almost give up. But i was thinking if i give up thn i will wasted my effort. We spent around 2-3 hour to go up to the waterfall. Before i reach the waterfall, i heard the waterfall's sound. I was very excited n very happy. Finally, we reach the waterfall. At first, we dunwan to make our body wet. Becoz there is no room to let us change our clothes. But after that, we really cant bear wif it. It is really very attractive, maybe becoz of we spent so many hour n put our effort to go up the waterfall so tat we felt tat is very attractive. In the end, we all bring the wet body to go down the waterfall. It's really fun. We juz spent around 1 hour to go down the waterfall. When we reach the chalet, we ate something as our dinner. At nite, we BBQ. ^^ TQ, daddy nicholas. He BBQ for me ^^ We hav play a game call guardian. The person i nid to guard one is VICTOR SIEW CHOON HOOI. I'm so "lucky". This fellow is very hard to guard. I try to do something for him, he keep reject one. I give him my sausage, he give others ppl. I wan help him, he dunwan. Heart Break = = We oso hav a responsible to take care of a small green bean.
Today, early in the morning got someone giv us morning call. I ate a piece of banana cake as a breakfast. Someone told me tat, we hav to go to the waterfall again. I shock and i felt wanna die = = But after tat i noe tat is juz a joke. They hav asked us to plant the green bean n punished the ppl who dunhav take good care of the green bean. Before we leave, we explore who is the guardian. But, i dunno who is my guardian. Becoz haven reach my turn thn we force to go back. I straight away slp in the bus. It's too tired. After go to the hiking, i try the bitter come 1st before sweet feeling. It's tough but nice. This is a good experience for me ^^

一封情书 - 一个无法确性的缘分

2009-04-11T14:32:00.001+08:00

今天，我突然想起那么一封我曾经写给你的情书。

一个无法确信的缘分，把两个不同世界的人牵引在一起，
从没想过我和你的相遇会有这么一段特别的结果，
一直把你想成是哥哥的我，真的好天真，
因为你给我的感觉就是那么会照顾人啊，
所以我会混乱也不奇怪啦，总是笑我傻傻的…
你偷偷的暗示，我却傻傻的相信你暗示后的借口，
一切都那么得难以致信，即使在一起了还是会想起当初笨笨的事迹，
不管过了多久还是会突然想起当初的事，真是可笑（哈哈），
想起你的好我会偷偷的笑，那么幸运的遇上这个体贴的你，
野蛮任性的我总是欺负你，可怜的你就只能被我欺负，哈哈，
未来的我们会遇上什么大风大浪吗？我很好奇…
未来的我们又会变得怎样呢？
我很爱耍嘴皮子，有时就是那么爱作弄你，
我不是故意要惹你生气，只是爱跟你玩，
包容我的不好，有什么不能包容的就告诉我，
我好好改进就是了，希望我们能好好地在一起，
我有害怕的时候，我会合你分享快乐和我的不安，
我希望我们能一起分享很多很多，这样能了解彼此更多更多，
这么两个星期没见，好想念好想念你哦，
我在想以后你回去了，我该怎么克制自己呢？
也许分割两地让人会很想念，会更加珍惜彼此的感情，
但谁会知道，这种珍惜能撑到几时呢？
我只能好好珍惜现在和你在一起的时光，
我们有必要一起计划未来吗？你觉得呢？
男生的感情是在追求时才那么的热情，
而女生正好相反，在一起后会越来越喜欢，越来越投入，
这就是男生和女生的不同，
我们需要建立很深的信任才能好好的维持我们的感情，
你怎么看待我们的感情呢？简简单单的在一起吗？
我曾经以为我的爱情像是被下了诅咒，
和第一任男朋友分手后就不能再有一场正常的恋爱，
结果你出现在我的世界里，推翻了这假想的诅咒，
我很容易流眼泪，很感动会流，很伤心也会流，
我如果生气你要哄我，不要让我一个人，我会害怕你不理我，
我如果不理你，只是在怄气，一定要理我哦！
我如果说些刺激你的话，请原谅我坏蛋好玩，
我很怕惹你生气，因为你会不理我，那一次我真的很害怕，
那一次的告白很好笑哦，我被吓了一跳，想起来就会笑，
我好想念你啊，就那么突然地写了这么长的一篇话。
Dear, I like u… Muackz…

不再重犯

2009-04-11T00:04:00.003+08:00

当它掉下的那一刻，我已经清楚了。当它干的那一刻，我已经变坚强了。我更相信自己，更爱自己。我会努力让自己不再重犯。努力读书，加油！让一下瞧不起我的人后悔！

睡觉免去等的时间

2009-04-05T17:01:00.002+08:00

昨天一大早就回johor了。到了后就去祭拜外婆和公公。过后又到放外婆骨灰的佛堂里去祭拜。过后就跟家人一起去吃云吞面。我没吃，因为不饿而且吃云吞面吃到怕。每次回去阿姨总是带我去那里吃。所以我不敢吃了。过后陪舅舅去看厨房摆设因为他要搬家。结果下起倾盆大雨，就在那间店里待到雨小了一些才离开。回到家就看戏，然后就上网一下。等等等。然后累了想睡了，才等到。讲不知道几句我就睡了。今天起床就准备回来了。然后我告诉他我要回了。没想到他比我更早起床，吃了早餐。过后我就在车上睡觉因为等了不知道多久手机寄出去的信息没收到回复，大概是睡着了。然后我到了，通知一声。对，睡着了，起床后看到我的信息回复要出门了。然后我等。然后收到在表哥或是表姐家聊天的信息。然后等。然后想。然后不想等。然后想睡，就不用等。我看睡吧^^

简单的约会

2009-04-02T18:38:00.003+08:00

这是他的饮料，我拍的。

这是我的饮料，他拍的。

这是甜点，我拍的，拍的不美 - -
昨天，终于把一直担心的功课交了。所以昨天就跟他一起出去看电影。昨天去the garden看"knowing"蛮不错一下。最近，我会想如果跟他的相遇是在中学里的同一所学校，或是大学的同一所学校。我们会不会可以稳定得不需要特别常常外出见面，因为在学校都能见面了。最近是有这么的疑问。就这么简单的约会我也很开心^^

反省

2009-04-01T00:47:00.003+08:00

finally done ady the report, i really very stress for this subject. i make many people trouble. Tq everyone who had help me. 我真的很烦人，烦人烦到真的恐怖。哈哈，他应该累了。对不起，我就是这么小题大作，我就是这么担心这担心那。我发现自己很依赖人。不再独立，我需要改掉这个不好的习惯。有时对人抱的期待也太大，换来伤心欲绝。受到这么一封邮件后才发现自己的错。我应该把所有的期待和希望都抱着七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。是应该好好反省自己的错了，还有带给别人的困扰了。

一张看起来很孤单的茶杯

~不在，不再。~

2009-03-29T15:00:00.005+08:00

听着还是没好一点的回答。我知道这是很好的答案，回答了我的心里想问的问题。这种事依然是那么的可以被预料。。。

藤井树。夏日之诗
只有在你身边的时候，我才能感觉到你，或是爱....仍然存在。

如果一切都能如想象中的幸福，这世界就不会有悲剧了。

~不在，不再。~
我想经由触摸去感受他的存在，
但我每次伸出手，手指总会穿过他的脸，
他依然眯着眼睛笑，
他依然跟我聊着天南地北的许多事。
我依然能听见他的声音，但他就是透明的。
我触摸不着。
是的，他已经不在了。
~ps:不在的东西对来不及去珍惜它的人最珍贵。

How is my tomorrow ?

2009-03-28T21:56:00.003+08:00

Today me n my movies group mate go to college for shooting movies... we shooting until 5pm or 6pm like tat.... then my bf come to fetch me to go back home... there was a heavy rain... after reach home, i take a bath n go to summit hav the dinner.... we walk around... thn came back my home around 8.27pm... so juz start the earth hour... off the light... thn he is too tired thn juz slp... after 9.30pm i open the living room's light... n he oso wake up jor... he said he want to back home ady... i dunno y, i juz hav a feeling tomorrow he wont come... today he is abit sick.... i juz feel tomorrow maybe will be more serius n wont come.... i really hav a feeling, dun wan to let him go back... but.....
ps:其实我们很难去告诉自己我有如何的爱他，只能凭感觉去追求真相，爱没有一定的平衡，只要大家都付出了多少就等于他/她在你心中的等值。 (这是一个学长告诉我的一句话，很有意思。。)

3月14日~“白色情人节”White Day

2009-03-14T19:57:00.005+08:00

3月14日~“白色情人节”最早起源于三世纪时的罗马。罗马皇帝在2月14日救了一对因为原本因违反恋爱结婚禁令而要被处死的恋人，罗马皇帝为了纪念这一天而设立了情人节。而在一个月后的3月14日，这对获救的恋人宣誓恋情将至死不渝，为纪念这天于是另订为白色情人节。
在日本，如果一方在2月14日当天收到异性送的情人礼表达爱意，而且对对方也有同样的好感或情意时，就会在3月14日回送对方一份情人礼物，那表示今年，彼此已经心心相印了。

一年里的12个情人节....

1月14日 Diary Day 日记情人节
2月14日 Valentine’s Day 传统情人节
3月14日 White Day 白色情人节
4月14日 Black Day 黑色情人节
5月14日 Yellow &Rose Day 玫瑰情人节
6月14日 Kiss Day 亲亲情人节
7月14日 Silver Day 银色情人节
8月14日 Green Day 绿色情人节
9月14日 Music &Photo Day 相片情人节
10月14日 Wine Day 葡萄酒情人节
11月14日 orange & Movie Day 电影情人节
12月14日 Hug Day 拥抱情人节

一年里的12个情人节 1月14日 diary day 日记情人节新的一年的开始，对自己喜欢的人要有表白和计划，写在自己的日记本里，在心中撒下爱的种子。 2月14日valentine’s day 传统情人节根据西方的传统，喜欢他就快送他巧克力。 3月14日 white day 白色情人节送于等到这一天了！他也喜欢你吗？还是他知识喜欢吃巧克力？今天就会知道了！在送出巧克力的一个月后，女生就能收到同样喜欢自己的男生送的白色糖果。吃颗糖，感觉真甜蜜！ 4月14日 black day 黑色情人节这个是杂酱面是黑色的。他吃了你送的巧克力，你尝了他送的糖，那么一起去吃杂酱面吧！在传统好味道里，两个人的心也可以连在一起。 5月14日 yellow &rose day 玫瑰情人节在一起也有一段时间了，他是真的喜欢你吗？他真的是你要找寻的那一半吗？应该表白一下啦！在今天买玫瑰给对方。一般朋友，黄色——知己，红色——爱人。你一定会送红色的。 6月14日 kiss day 亲亲情人节你也手到他的红玫瑰了？今天看见别人在kiss，不用回避，因为今天是kiss day。 7月14日 silver day 银色情人节传统习俗是用银戒订婚，所以去买一对，戴在手上，作为甜蜜心情的见证。 8月14日 green day 绿色情人节相爱的人们成双成对地去郊游，爬山游水感受自然，就像他们要携手走过爱情一样。 9月14日music &photo day 相片情人节练了好久的情歌今天终于登场了，虽然五音不全，但是用去听就有会新的笑容！拿出相机，拍下这灿烂、充满甜蜜的笑容。 10月14日 wine day 葡萄酒情人节烛光下晃动着深红的葡萄酒，爱情一样要用心慢慢的品味。 11月14日 orange & movie day 电影情人节一起去看电影吧！手牵手一起去电影院。12月14日 hug day 拥抱情人节一年了，仍然相爱，看天空飘着雪花，而相拥在一起，永远也不知道寒冷……

不需要嫁人，就不需要谈恋爱。

2009-03-14T18:30:00.003+08:00

当你还在读中学时，长辈就会说。。现在先不要谈恋爱！上大学后，机会很多。会认识很多不同的人，到时才来谈恋爱也不迟。当你上大学时，长辈又会说不要这么早谈恋爱，现在先读好书，以后会有机会的。是不是很矛盾，很奇怪。能不能说是说话不算话呢？倒不如说不要嫁人，然后就不需要谈恋爱。长辈看到的东西永远和晚辈看到的不一样。在大人眼中，晚辈的相爱是需要家人的见证的。得不到祝福的晚辈，就努力吧。一起去面对未知的未来。。。带着无法确定能被再次接受的心继续下去。我的生命能说是很幸运，但也能说是很不幸。因为人的不知足，所以觉得不幸。我生日就像是灾难日，要到生日时或过了生日没几天，灾难就降临。面对这些灾难，很辛苦。如果可以，我不要有生日。因为我贪心的只想快乐，不要面对灾难。

7/3/2009 my birthday

2009-03-10T21:24:00.011+08:00

Today i wake up around 10 or 11am like tat... Thn i start to waiting for my bf coz today he got cls until 1pm... I online and do many things.... I keep repeat listen jess use piano to play the song n i keep see the lyrics repeat singing n singing... Juz ntg to do thn wan to learn to sing the song... I really very like the song... Muackz... After that, when my bf cls finish thn he go back his home awhile n come to find me.... We go to Garden to hav our lunch... We ate taiwan's snack food... "shi lin ye shi" thn walk around thn walk to mid valley n thn i feel tired, he juz fetch me back to slp... When i wake up, i suddenly wanna to take photo-sticker... Thn we go to Sunway Pyramid to hav our dinner n take the photo-sticker... When we reach there, the car park... Fuyoh~ So many cars!!! We park the car in the CP7... Then me n him juz hav a sense wanna eat korean food thn we go to the asian avenue... But the korean food there is so many people = = So we decide to go to take photo-sticker 1st thn only go back to hav our dinner... We walk around the photo-sticker kiosk thn thinking wanna choose which one... After we decide we juz take some time to think wat pose we should do... Thn everything proceed very smooth. We design thn photo until times up... still got 1 more haven do any design... But i satisfied ady... Thn we go back to the korean food restaurant, that is about 9.30pm... The staff told us the restaurant is closed. So we juz go to the gasoline to hav our dinner... He ate the seafood rice n i ate the fish n chips... He order mango soda n i order passion tea... My food n my drinks all is bigger thn him one - -" I hav the dinner very rush coz the staff wanna closed the shop ady... After that we wanna go to Secret Recipe to buy the Yogurt cheese cake.... but the shop is closed... Thn we saw there is a shop got sold cake... So we juz buy one chocolate cake, one mable cheese cake and one cup of strawberry. When reach home, we keep take the photo for the cake... n when we juz wanna to start to ate the cake... I take the mable cake n look... there is a mouldy cake, below the cake hav some small black spot = =. I hav abit unhappy coz tat is my birthday cake... Happened tis kind of things = = Felt so unfortunate... Thn the next day, we go to 1U to watch movie n ate the Secret Recipe's cheese cake...

I LOVE U ALL~~~

2009-03-06T18:31:00.003+08:00

1st of all i want to say is Thanks guys.... Yesterday i had bad mood really very sad... Something happen...I juz thought no one likes me n juz like be abandon. Today i feel weird abt y everyone ask others ppl, y u din wear green shirt ? I juz feel like no one ask me to wear green shirt woh.... Y all of thm wear = = After exam we go to theater hall waiting for Victor!!! Becoz he wan to treat us!!! Haha. Thn after all of thm reach theater hall, they start to ask everyone sit down n said: today we wan to celebrate 2 person birthday. Thn they ask me to go up stage... They start to sing song... After tat Cally giv me a card.... The card got many lucky clover.... I LIKE IT VERY MUCH. Muackz tq ^^ Then celebrate wif Vickie... They make a book for vickie.... The most touching one is.... JoJo, Jess, Cally, Ilex and May.... They are made a song n sing for both of us... Really very nice.....I like it very much.....I m touching becoz yesterday i juz face something really very unhappy things... But today I noe all my frenz nvr forgot abt my birthday.... All my frenz even bz in the mid term still take some time to make things for me!!! I very treasure all of tis... My 1st wish~ Hope everyone happy everyday n study well. 2nd wish~ Frienship Forever since u all say will protect me until forever... 3rd wish~ keep in my mind...

This is my present ^^

The lyrics 四叶草

低着头我伏在桌上

反复聆听着你送给我的

那首编织爱与梦的歌

四叶草带来幸福

友情像盛开的花朵

弹奏着最动听的乐谱

蓝天下为你而欢呼

四叶草相信梦想

载着爱与希望

有梦有笑才会感动

我们为你守候到永久

这首歌很棒！非常爱它！谢谢你们。。。

Tagged

2009-03-03T11:15:00.003+08:00

tagged by : Dear Ms. Vickie Foong

Rules & Regulations:

- do not copy answers
- the tag questions must be 100% the same
- tag people before doing tag
I tag
1. Jess
2. Cally
3. Jojo
4. Chelsie
5. Nicholas chow
6. wave
7. yancy
8. ilex
9. victor

How you know 1? ( Jess)
- knew her since juz in the college. Becoz of my roommate n her good frenz taking same course.

What would you do if you never meet 2? (Cally)
- i wont noe there are someone seems like mummy, care abt me ^^

What would you do if 3 and 4 dated you? (jojo+ chelsie)
- hahah, kisiao wif thm gua.

Would 5 and 6 make a good couple? (Nicholas chow+wave)
- this is impossible to happen, they dunno each other.

Do you think 7 is attractive? (Yancy)
-yes, of coz she hav matual thinking, haha !

Tell me something about 9 (Victor)
-Gay, haha

What's 1 favourite past time? (Jess)
- playing piano

What language does 2 speaks? (Cally)
-as i noe, eng, mandarin, cantonese, bm...

Who is 3 going out with? (Jojo)
-chelsie gua or go out with a gang of frens.....

How old is 4? (Chelsie)
18

When was the last time you talked to 5? (Nicholas Chow)
-yesterday

Who is 6 favourite singer? (Wave)
-not sure, jay chow, i think.

Would you date 7? (Yancy)
-of course, if she is willing to go out with me.... =)

Is 8 single? (Ilex)
- Not.

What's 9 last name? (Victor)
Hooi

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1? (Jess)
-Not, i got bf ady. N i hav not preparation to become a lesbian.

Which school does 2 go to? (Cally)
segi subang jaya

What do you like about 3? (Jojo)
-Kisiao n smart

jenjarom trip & valentine day

2009-02-16T23:39:00.004+08:00

Last time go to jojo's house i really very happy n i hav a sweet memory wif my college frenz.... 1st time i ate dry bak kuh teh, 1st time try to BBQ by myself, and oso 1st time go to klang! Tq jojo n oso tq to everyone who hav go to klang wif me ^^

Valentine day, a happy day oso... me n dear bought one pair of roman numeral rings. Nice ^^ 即使是一个简简单单的情人节，只要有你我也很快乐^^希望你也过得开心^^

今天的我。。。

2009-02-06T00:32:00.003+08:00

我今天很快乐。和朋友一起玩，不知道怎么就觉得今天心情很不错。和朋友一起约定穿红色衣服，有舞狮来我们学校，一直去看舞狮。我拿到了一粒柑和一粒糖！过后，我们就一同到麦当劳吃午餐，一群穿着红色衣服的学生到麦当劳。哈哈。我真地很开心。过后就回家睡觉，到了傍晚男朋友打电话来，我就叫他来陪我一起吃晚餐。吃完晚餐，回到家接到一通改变我心情的电话。我哭了一下子，男朋友陪在身边一直劝我不要哭，安慰我。我希望。。。。。。。明天要去朋友家玩，希望我会开心。

Shogun~~

2009-02-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

今天的晚餐，我和男朋友在1U 的 Shogun japanese buffet 解决。Shogun 有火锅，我们就去拿了一些生鱼片来煮。煮到最后汤头很咸，也不知道为什么。我们只是放生鱼片而已咯！好饱好饱，男朋友也很饱。我们俩挺着大大圆圆的肚子回家。哈哈，难得的一次大餐。好贵，但是就久久一次^^明天要开学了。要开始准备收拾心情了！加油！开心的一天^^